The Squall

 Relief Will Come

The pain that you been feeling can’t compare to the joy that is coming. Romans 8:18

90 Days Sober! It’s nice when you finally get to a place of true healing. Once there it’s amazing to just be able to work on the present rather than obsess and relive the past over and over in your mind. There was one point when I asked my husband, “Will I ever feel joy again,” He said, “Yes, you will.” He doesn’t know this but I held onto that hope that he shared with me. 

One day things did lift after years of pain and the mourning process was over. Like a large rock being thrown into a stream the Lord took the burden off my heart! I started to feel joy again and I am thankful I made it through a mighty squall. The squall was a spiritual one and often times unseen by the naked eye. That’s the hard part about bipolar depression. Everything can look just fine on the outside but the battle rages on the inside. 

Something God shared with me the other day was that the last five years we’re not always for others, or even for Him but for me “his child” to be able to heal so that He can use me for a great odyssey that lays ahead in my far future. He said, “You needed to be more resilient and that is what that journey was all about... BUILDING your resilience!” When I heard God speak this to me - I cried. This word came when I was doing an everyday activity of just driving home from the grocery store. When we patiently wait on the Lord He will show up in the most unexpected of ways. 

I share because I want people to know that if you are in a season of great suffering. Please keep holding on because there truly is hope and that grayish/ black Vail will lift. It will lift off of you. The squall will subside and you will find your relief. 

Not sure who this is for but God put it on my heart to lay down some deep words tonight. 

❤️ - Michelle